Do I look ugly now?

I was aware of the things that might change once a woman gets pregnant. Physical appearance changes and women gets stretchmarks on their bodies. Their armpits and neck turns black. Legs, feet, and thighs become bigger. Most women gets a second chin. Aside from all these physical changes that are all so obvious, there is also emotional stress. With the physical changes comes very sharp senses as well to sound and much more to odor. When a woman gets pregnant her sense of smell becomes more powerful. This often leads to vomiting and loss of appetite. I have experienced all of these. What is worst is when you feel that because of all these changes taking place in your body you become insecure because you feel that you have become ugly. So did I experience this as well? Did I ask myself “Do I look ugly now?”

Yes, indeed. I have asked myself and my husband this question countless times already. I know and I am aware that everything will be back after giving birth but I could not take it when I see myself in the mirror. I am now getting a lot of pimples on my face which I did not usually had. I can no longer engage in activities which I am used to before. I do not have the luxury to tidy myself up because I get sleepy all the time and I felt it is more important than cutting my nails. I am just contented with just the normal taking a bath. And now, I feel ugly and I ask myself, “Why I am feeling this?”

I could not get the answer to that question. I know that I will look better after nine months because I know I would be more happy with my baby. But it is hard when you cannot express your feelings. When you cannot tell everything to anyone. I know this feelings will pass and I will get a much more wonderful blessing from all these suffering. I will eventually be happy with my husband and my first born.