My Treasure Basket

I am depressed…

When a woman overly loves her husband, she tends to tell him everything about her and her husband thinks she is unreliable. She tends to tell him her fears and frustrations and her husband thinks she is weak. She tends to to trust him that she does not care how she looks and her husband thinks she is ugly. She tends to praise him too much and her husband thinks he can do what he wants. She tends to be aggressive when it comes to protecting her family and her husband thinks she could not live without him and begin to think “I am no longer liking the way she is now and I am beginning to choke. I need space.” I am not sure if I am the only one feeling this way. But over and over again, I am beginning to feel that I am not satisfied with what I have earned. The more I try to do my best, the more I am feeling incompetent. I need someone who can comfort me. I need someone who can truly understand what I feel without judging who I am and what I have become. I know what selfishness means. But I am sure I did my best to share what I have. But not today. I just feel so depressed, I want to cry but I cannot. I want to feel better every day. I do not want this misery. I hate this agony. Lord help me. I am your daughter. And though I make mistakes, You know what is deep inside my heart.