My Treasure Basket

Quick fix

April — Tue, 23 Aug 2011 21:00:13 +0000

My husband has been away for 8 days now and it was quiet difficult trying to communicate with him and very expensive too. He just made 2 calls there and bwhalaaaaaaa! He got charged $350. That’s roughly over 15 thousand pesos. OMG! He is only getting allowance for food and transportation, I think. That’s not enough to pay the phone bill and eat enough. I pity my husband. I am not there to cook healthy food for him. Tsk tsk tsk… So now we have to just be contented with just the email and chat and facebook.

Yesterday, I tried the online site again looking for information how I could transfer my LG photos and videos and whewwww! It is so frustrating I could not get one article to completely resolve my problem. Got this information that I needed to download drivers into my laptop and I have downloaded tons of them but none is working. My laptop just keeps on telling me “Device not recognized” or something. I was totally frustrated! I do not have a camera, I don’t have enough money to buy one and I only have a phone but the memory is full and I cannot transfer them. I was totally devastated thinking I would not be able to send my husband updates on Cedric and of course our little one. I was so sad and was about to give up when I read about a response. This person offered assistance but I was wondering why she did not publish the answer online. I sent her a message and found she was doing it for a living. She wants to earn money for her and her daughter. She does not have a job and she needs funds to raise her child without a husband (I am lucky to have one). So I tried it and she asked me a sum of money in exchange. At first I thought if it was fraud. But I could not figure how to do it. I thought I had to try it. So I decided to do it – paid her and tried her fix and I made it! Actually, it was just an easy one. I do not even call it troubleshooting. It was just a set of tapping my fingers on buttons and there I get to open my mass storage device and transfer everything! I thought for a moment, it was so easy I would not even asked for her help but did not have the time to think. I was thinking I earned 2 things, anyway. I get to download my photos and videos and free up space for our new adventures and second, I got to help someone raise her child. That was a nice experience!!! Thank you, Mable!

PS. If you are interested send her an email at mableneedsaliving@yahoo.com.

I need an inspiration

April — Mon, 22 Aug 2011 21:00:24 +0000

Been feeling down. I thought I needed power words. I thought GOD can comfort me. Then suddenly, I thought about Mother Teresa. I want to be inspired by her. I want to accept how imperfect I am. I want to understand what I need and what I want. I need her words to keep me right on track. Today, I will share the following to all who needed inspiration.

“May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.” — Mother Teresa

I am not perfect

April — Sun, 21 Aug 2011 21:00:03 +0000

I have made a lot of mistakes. I am not perfect. I have hurt a lot of people. But I learned the one I hated the most was the one I gave my love to. This person has hurt me in many ways, has hurt my feelings, my position, my principles, my dreams. I tried my best to endure the confusion but it is too much that I wanted to hurt back. Well, I did it and I did my best. In the end, I was not happy. Every time I am provoked my quick response was to inflict pain. I know nothing else to do but to hate and put all the blame. I have become miserable and unhappy and unforgiving. I am well aware of all my shortcomings. I want to be free of all these things. So I want to be free. I want to be alone. I do not need to force myself to someone who does not understand me. I just hope that someday I will achieve it.

I am depressed…

April — Sat, 20 Aug 2011 21:00:19 +0000

When a woman overly loves her husband, she tends to tell him everything about her and her husband thinks she is unreliable. She tends to tell him her fears and frustrations and her husband thinks she is weak. She tends to to trust him that she does not care how she looks and her husband thinks she is ugly. She tends to praise him too much and her husband thinks he can do what he wants. She tends to be aggressive when it comes to protecting her family and her husband thinks she could not live without him and begin to think “I am no longer liking the way she is now and I am beginning to choke. I need space.” I am not sure if I am the only one feeling this way. But over and over again, I am beginning to feel that I am not satisfied with what I have earned. The more I try to do my best, the more I am feeling incompetent. I need someone who can comfort me. I need someone who can truly understand what I feel without judging who I am and what I have become. I know what selfishness means. But I am sure I did my best to share what I have. But not today. I just feel so depressed, I want to cry but I cannot. I want to feel better every day. I do not want this misery. I hate this agony. Lord help me. I am your daughter. And though I make mistakes, You know what is deep inside my heart.

Something good and bad

April — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 21:00:25 +0000

I was very happy to know that my husband arrived in Arizona safe and sound. I was more happy to know that he has already talked to my mom and Al. However, something went bad. Cedric got fever. This is one of those times when I get to show the real woman I am. As a wife, I need to have faith in GOD to protect my husband while he is away and got to have trust in my husband to resist all kinds of temptation no matter how simple it can be. As a mother, I need to be strong for my baby. I need to be in control of the situation. I need to have peace of mind so that I will be able to concentrate on important things and make priorities. I am stronger now but my heart is still soft that I always cry. I have no choice but to surrender to GOD everything that I worry about and all will be taken cared of. I know it. I surrender!

Another protection for Cedric

April — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 21:00:44 +0000

Cedric just got his dose of the vaccine MMR. This vaccine will continue to protect Cedric. Cedric started out crying because he knew the doctor is going to administer him something that would be painful. But after that, he was quiet again and went along his normal baby day as if nothing happened. My baby is really growing up!

A prayer for a safe journey

April — Mon, 15 Aug 2011 21:00:39 +0000

Lord, my husband, Lordly is going on a long trip to the US in order to meet his company’s demand for additional work force in their main branch located at Scottsdale, Arizona. This is going to be his first time to be away and his farthest trip from home. Although, Mama Merla, Al and his Ate May are in the US to help him once he gets there, worrying about how he will be during the trip is not something that can be ignored. But in your arms Oh Lord, I put my trust for husband’s safety journey. May he be able to get through difficult sleeping time in the plane and confusing routes and signs in the airport and successfully get to his destination without cuts and bruises. Keep him alert, quick-minded and guided all the time. Let him watch over his belongings and not lose any important documents. Cover him with your shield from all forms of fraud and robbery and accidents in his long journey. Always bless and protect him. This I ask from my Lord GOD Jesus Christ and the intercession of the Holy Spirit and Mother Mary. Amen.

My One-Year-Old

April — Sun, 14 Aug 2011 21:00:23 +0000

My mother-in-law celebrated her 51st birthday. All her children except her eldest, who is now in the US, attended her party. Lordly and I pledged to bring spaghetti ingredients and ice cream. They prepared the main dish. Sandie, my sister-in-law, bought the cake. This was a multiple celebration. It is my husband’s despidida party for his business and training trip to the US and a sort of a celebration also of Cedric turning 1 year and 3 months. He is amazing. He has learned that which is usually acquired by a 2 year old baby. For me, my son is really advanced. He can do more than just walking. He runs fast and climbs as easily as if he were used to it. He really has strong arms and legs. But no matter how smart he is, his baby instincts still showed when at his Grandma’s house he saw unfamiliar faces like his Aunt Honey and Uncle Kerwin. Most of the time he enjoys going out but this day was different. It was not his day. He was more grumpy than happy. But everything turned out just fine when his Grandpa caught his attention with a megaphone. He was so amazed at how this bell like thing could make such a loud noise. He was so curious he really wanted to touch it. All because of that Aunt Honey was able to carry him and he did not complain.

Life is too short

April — Wed, 10 Aug 2011 21:00:46 +0000

My sister called me up early today. She told me about the situation of her best friend who is now in a critical condition. Her friend’s disease started with a skin lupus. I am not scientifically certain as to how it develops but I have read that it can be hereditary. Right now, her friend’s hemoglobin is attacked by its own antibodies making the red blood cells explode. The more the doctors do blood transfusions the stronger the antibodies would react because there are more red blood vessels to kill. Her situation is really critical and I was kind of guilty for feeling too bad in my situation (My Treasure Basket’s – Anything can happen.) when someone else is suffering with this condition. I know that only a miracle can save her now. She has done a lot of wonderful things for her family. She never stopped helping them and using her own savings even if she has her own concern to prepare for.

Everyone of us are going somewhere. I just pray that in my journey, on top of making sure that my children will grow to be responsible and GOD fearing citizens, that I will be able to learn how to forgive those who have hurt me…

Anything can happen.

April — Sun, 07 Aug 2011 21:00:34 +0000

Came from work today. I am really exhausted. On my way home, I felt mixed emotions. I was trying to get a grip of myself while trying to accept the situation I am in. I started with NACS Consumer and learned a lot there, met new, interesting and worthy friends. I learned how to fight, become assertive and become even stronger. I won many times, I also lost some. I never thought I was going to say goodbye to all these one day. When the first question about me transferring to a technical account, I could not say anything. I was thinking if the transfer had to do something about my performance, about my attitude and the relationship with my boss and I could not figure it out. It hurt but I did not know why. They said the reason why I am transferring was because I graduated BSIT and I was the only one who is qualified. I rationalized and all I can think of was it was nothing personal and management had to make a decision. So I slowly started accepting my fate. So I joined the training for this new technical account. I was getting the hang of it when there was another announcement. The team will be moved to another account instead. I just smiled. It was the same thing. No comment. I just kept quite and then there was this question again. “How comfortable are you in transferring to . . .” But this time there was this assurance statement saying “Oh, you can give me your answer later…” It took a week before I was finally informed that there will be movements again. And now it is for real. I know the fact that I do not get to choose what I like. There is also no saying “NO”. They just want to ask the question that way probably not to hurt the person their breaking the news to but it was exactly the opposite. Doing that is like making the person suffer that “you know” there is nothing we can do on our end but “you know” we had to make this “painful decision”. I get it. I know this whole business matter. I can understand if someone will tell me “I am sorry but we need to move you to another account because so far you’re the only one who does not have a team. Everyone else knows their agents already. On top of that, we are understaffed. We have to move someone or our account will suffer. I hope you understand.” I just hate being asked that “How comfy” question again. I know that management is trying to keep people. I know that they do not like to make decisions that would affect everyone. I know that every decision is carefully studied on and is for the welfare of everyone. I just hope they will be a bit more straightforward to tell people their decisions than allow a person to feel the agony of the uncertainty of the chance of not moving anywhere and staying in their respective comfort zones. On the lighter side, I can finally have a team to be with and work with. This is better than not doing anything at all. I am still thankful to GOD that I still have a job. I am still getting paid, still feed my baby with it, and sleep well. For now what I know is everything has a reason. I am putting my life in GOD’s hands. At this very moment while I am editing this post, “I would like to pray to GOD that he take direct control of my life, take ownership of all my troubles and worries, enlighten me of the correct path to take, give me the strength to move on despite challenges of a married life and the difficulties at work. I am giving up to the Lord all my heartaches, all my pains, all my sorrows, my family and my loved ones for him to protect and bless. I pray that he will continue to lend me a hand so that I will succeed in my job and become the BEST MOM I can be. This I pray to the Lord GOD, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit with the intercession of the most loving Mother Mary. Amen.”